It's going to be a place where only the things you want to happen, would happen.

You too? I wonder who she is. because even though I'm not in love with you, you made me feel this thing that I couldn't feel not even with january and that is lucky. I guess what I'm really trying to say is i'm taking the littlest bit of attention and I'm falling in love with it and I really just want to fall in love. Everyone else makes it look so easy, and I blame it on the looks, or the personality, but maybe it's all about the attitude. and mine hasn't been in the right place since third grade. I miss sober hand holding, and watching movies, and being warm, I miss wasting late nights on stupid boys, and letting my guard down. I miss the little feelings I have felt, but I still want so much more. It's stupid things, like giving your number to a boy and him never texting you, or moving on, or nothing at all. and it eats at me. and I think there is a simple solution to everything, but sometimes it really isn't you, it's them. you can't change how the heart feels. I need to better myself though, and then it'll happen when it's supposed to. I rely so much on fate that I forget that there is more out there then that, a whole lot more. and it doesn't look like anything i've ever experienced. and it comes with being happy, or feeling whole, or finding yourself. and I guess I have a lot of growing up to do. maybe i'm supposed to be in love, but maybe it's not my time. I heard somewhere that your heart is supposed to get a little stronger after all the heartbreak, but it's just breaking even more away, and i'm not sure how much left there is before all I feel is love.