it's those moments where your sitting in arizona trying to figure out who you are. and if your weird, or if you can handle spicy foods, or life. and your looking at a picture of some boy who lives in phoenix, and thinking about how he looks like a boy you were in love with once, and wondering if they are anything alike but understanding that they aren't. and it's the way you live knowing you already experienced the best its ever going to get. and wondering if it was even that good. and it's walking around campus a day in december and seeing everyone you know, and realising that you've seen them for the past four years and you hardly know them. and it's none of those things. and it's complaining about your life but never having the guts to change anything, and it's blogging about never changing it, and it's me sitting here making absolutely no sense, hearing stories from someone who actually takes advantage of it, and wondering why you hadn't took advantage sooner. and if you ever will. and it's wondering why you didn't always give it 110% , and why you can't keep a sentence, or hold someones attention, and it's this interview that chace crawford did in people magazine, telling everyone how his dream girl is penny lane from almost famous because she always keeps you on edge, and wondering if you'll ever be that girl, and wondering if chace crawford will ever find her.