yup, im on that verge where i don't wish you were here, and the clouds look a little different outside. and my hands don't sweat anymore because i'm not nervous. but you did change the way I see the clouds, and you didn't let me settle for any less. and i guess i thank you for that because your so much different than the people i'm used to seeing, and I mean that in the best way. and i wish i would have understood that it's always been a you thing, and not an us thing because i wouldn't have wasted so much time on it. i don't think we'll hold hands anymore, and you don't need to sit by me on the couch even though I know I'll want you to. this is me saying that even though you are the best for me and i know we could argue that... that doesn't mean it's in the cards because sometimes the things that are meant to happen, don't. you can't re write fate because you want to. it'll work it's way out, but that doesn't mean don't try because in the end you never know what fate looks like. it could be in a empty movie theater, or friday night football games, or saturday night mansion parties, and it all counts. you just need to get back on your feet, turn your swag on, and make the best of it because even the hardest times don't call for the stormiest weather, and the sun will still come up somewhere tomorrow, and there is no fun in having the entire world enjoy there lives and you forget how to live it. do a new thing everyday, laugh more, lay in the grass more, make lists until you don't need them, stop complainging, eat less, run more often, enjoy the simple things, and don't stop to forget about your dreams because in the moments you waste forgetting about them are plenty of time for someone else to grab hold