I'm done, I don't know what I expected. Just you to wake up one day, miss me, and prove to me that wasting all this time was worth it. But your down here, and other girls are in your bed, and It's not me and It'll never be me, and it never should have been me. Your the biggest waste of time I've ever known and I know how everyone secretly wishes we'd end up together but even wishing on 11:11's can't change someones feelings. I can't rely on fate, it can only do 15% of the work, and i'm done using the other 85. There's other things out there, and I'm not sure why but I've been closing my eyes this entire time. The only things I see are what I wish would happen. I can't change the world, I can't change the way you look at me, and I can't change the way I feel. But I can try. I don't think being unhappy has ever been worth it. I would probably trade in the two months I was happy for the year and a half that I was not. I feel stupid, and naive, and I didn't learn a single thing about love except what it feels like to be in it alone. I've wasted all this time, and lost all this sleep, and spend all these nights wanting someone who couldn't love someone if he tried. He loves people, but he can't love a person. I want him to be happy, I want me to be happy, I want life to move on and me to go along with it. So here I am late at night when I'm drunk and missing someone, I won't text you. I won't try for you, I'll live and take my own advice for once. I'm moving on, because I have to.
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