this isn't weakness or evasion

I saw a picture of you two today, and I've seen it months ago over the summer I think. It made me picture you with your shirt off, standing in your bedroom, and it made me remember how laying their pretending to be asleep and hearing you laugh together felt. I know how it sounds, but we all do it sometimes. Men do things for power, or money, or status, and woman do things men couldn't understand, girls do it all for love everything. There's always that 1/8 of that thinks you'll have second chances, or you'll remember how their lips taste, or how they smell in the morning. and maybe you never forgot. But I wish I had apathy, because I can hardly take being ignored, and being heartbroken still sucks, but I don't feel it anymore. and i forgot to stop believing in fate.